yo, read the daily life of one of the worlds most boring people

i want you to look in a mirror.......

2006-09-11T00:18:45Z

and tell me what u see. wanna know what i see. the usual; skin, on a face, body, etc. but thats not what i want u to look for. i want you to go deeper. below all the blood and muscle and bones. where your soul lies. what do you see?? when i do this, wanna know what i see? nothing, no soul, no heart, nothing at all. i look like and feel like a big empty shell. just thought u should know that.

i know why

2006-09-08T00:41:55Z

but im not telling. its wierd, ive wanted this for a while now. and now that its true i dont know what to do. i should be happier, but with what i just found out, im not. i feel like im aching inside and i dont have a reason to. i mean, i wanted this. but it shouldnt have been this way. oh well. it happens. nothing i can do now.

fun times

2006-07-12T02:45:45Z

aaahhhh...... time to update i suppose, went to cali friday night, drove for 6.5 hours to get to the hotel. left at about 9:30 got there at about 1:30 am. hung out all day with some of the coolest people, star, jewan, zak, l.p. coley, cubbie, and the doctor! it was the shit.

damn, and tonight was looking soo good too.......

2006-06-02T06:00:27Z

just got back from seeing a movie, posiedon, and i advise that you dont go see it. not only is it a horrible movie... BUT YOUR CAR WILL GET BROKEN INTO!!!! i had 2 6x9's an audiobahn 2002 amp and an infinity 1200 watt 12" sub stolen out of my car. and the surveillance around the building didnt capture a damn thing. any help or advice would be greatly appreciated!

hhhhhmmmmmm.......

2006-05-18T23:01:08Z

trying to get back into the habit of using this thing more often but i just dont see how i can.... so on and so forth, my lifes not that interesting but yeah, WHO THE FUCK CARES!!!!! great thing about the internet, if you dont care, you can close the window!!! HAHA!! so yeah, lifes good for me, thats all i can say, im loving life. YAY ME!!!

life

2006-05-11T04:17:36Z

life is such a fickle thing. so easy to hve yet even easier to loose. some people choose to give up at life and others let it take its own path. the lose of some one isnt as hard as i thought it would be. they are now free from this plain, free from anguish, free from pain and heartache. just free, in all sense of the world. this is not a suicidal note, just something ive been thinking about for the last few hours.

i dont know.....

2006-02-22T06:27:47Z

i dont konw what to do anymore. i love miki but i cant stand her at the same time. its nothing that can be changed, i do this in every relationship. it goes good in the beginning but then i lose interest. it cant be stopped. ive tried to keep going as long as i can to see if things change and they dont. i dont wana break up with her but at the same time........ i just dont know anymore, i dont know what i want, i dont know what im gonna do, if anything at all. i just dont know.

EARTHDANCE!!

2005-09-17T22:45:38Z

well, all in all it turns out that my friend came to my rescue and is loaning me the money to go to earthdance!! haha, prophect is on my side tonight (hopefully). well, if ur going ill see ya there, if ur not, im sorry, ill dedicate a light show to ya!! THanx Sage, u rock.

mafo86 @ 2005-08-02T22:39:00

2005-08-03T05:39:49Z

yo, if u wanna call me my number is 602-818-7527

mafo86 @ 2005-07-26T22:23:00

2005-07-27T05:31:35Z

oh,and by the way, my myspace adress is euphorics_suck@netzero.com

mafo86 @ 2005-07-26T22:23:00

2005-07-27T05:23:07Z

You Are 20 Years Old

20

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

make it stop

2005-07-22T22:59:15Z

ok, this is open to anyone who can and wants to help. i have a girlfriend, and i love my girlfriend, but the more about her i find out the less i like. hower=ver everytime i go to talk to her about it i cant seem to find my words at all. all i can do is show a face of uncertainty and tell her everything is fine and not to worry. i try not to dwell on the past, but that very difficult concidering what happened and howmany people know about it and bring it up. if anyone can make it stop hurting, please let me know.
-Matt

mafo86 @ 2005-07-21T20:08:00

2005-07-22T03:08:23Z

Getting Damn Good
Congratulations! You scored 70%!

You know what your doing and you do it well! Learn a thing or two and you will master the skill!

My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 57% on sex points

Link: The How Good in Bed Are You Test written by lolaprincess on OkCupid Free Online Dating

mafo86 @ 2005-07-21T20:03:00

2005-07-22T03:03:39Z

Category 4
You scored 85 bed compatibility,

Marry me!

My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 65% on bed compatible

Link: The Would we be good in bed Test written by inkytron on Ok Cupid

mafo86 @ 2004-07-20T01:45:00

2004-07-20T06:54:45Z

hey, was up? this will probably be the last entry due to the fact that i never have time to update and so on and so forth. just to give you an incite on the life that most of you dont know about. i have this severe problem with being forgotten. its been one of my worst fears in the world and still haunts me to this day. hence my plans to live forever. i will be immortalized in one way or the other. and for those close to me, the very few that i let in, you know why ive been depressed lately. i am moving again, back to AZ. and when i do i keep running through my mind how many ppl will actually remember me. every time i do, there are less and less ppl that i end up with and they will forget me by the end of the year. i have gone through this once before and it nearly killed me. now i am forced to do it again. i will get through it, ive done it before, and ill do it again, but it bothers me to know that no matter how hard i try to be remembered by others, in the end, i will become no more important the the pet fish they used to have, or the bed they sold. its just been a long and depressing journey through my life up to this point, and im sure it will continue for years to come. so, on this last note, just remind yourself that you are more important than that old piece of furniture you got rid of, or the pet that died, and make yourself be remembered, if all fails, atleast ppl will remember you tried.

mafo86 @ 2004-06-27T13:32:00

2004-06-27T18:32:46Z

hey, was up?? not much here just going back to TX today. ive had fun this past week in New York visiting my grandma and uncle and all. the weather has been nice and calm and the ocean is always pleasent. i was just packing and i saw a gum wrapper on the floor and it made me think of my sophomore year in high school. kori, you should rememeber this, Katie and i used to peel the silver off of the gum wrappers and stick it to the desk then i would inscribe "BatMango" in them and i would be laughing the entire day about it. damnit, there is a guitar at the guitar shop up the road that i really want but dont have the money for. and it pisses me off. http://www.bcrich.com/2003/bodyart/MARCH.jpg yeah, the guy was giving me a really good deal on it, they have had it for a while and are trying to get rid of it and i was the first person to show interest in it. well, im gonna go, talk to ya later.
-Matt

mafo86 @ 2004-06-21T16:34:00

2004-06-21T21:41:01Z

hey, was up?? got my tongue pierced, b-day was the 15, im now officially an adult!! im also in new york for a week so thats cool. well, not much to say, said it all already, just wanted to say was up to everyone and i highly recommend buying the seether - disclaimer II cd. its bad ass. well, g2g, talk to ya later.
-Matt

mafo86 @ 2004-05-31T07:12:00

2004-05-31T12:16:53Z

yo, was up?? this summer is looking like itll be pretty cool. we went wake boarding yesterday, my first time, and i got up on the 5 or 6 try. its a lot harder than it looks.and we are going again today and very often afterwards. then we are paintballing it up, we have a match going and i lead 3 - 2, first to 4 wins. then we jam, my friend is like a guitar god and hes teaching me, guitar and drums. its kick ass. last night my friends threw me a going away party, and it, im sorry to say, really sucked. if you dont smoke weed and dont rave, there was nothing to do.and i dont do either so... yeah. and everyone was pissed at me cuz i showed up 2 hours late. which im glad i did cuz the beginning i heard was even worse. so we came back to my friends house and chilled by the pool, had some drinks, and enjoyd the vodka. well, i g2g talk to yall later. peace out and what not.
-Matt

mafo86 @ 2004-04-27T18:50:00

2004-04-27T23:56:20Z

hey, was up?? not much here just chillin. being a senior has so many advantages. today, they are doing the taks (texas assesment of knowledge something or other). i dont fully konw but it is the state standardized test, and i didnt have to be at school until 11:00 then we heard about this school not to far from here that the seniors had to sit in the rooms with the test takers and do nothing all day. that would blow hard. anyways, i just learned like 3 songs by godsmack, solo and all, i feel pretty happy. this means that i know keep away, straight out of line, faceless, and make me believe, all the way through. oh yeah. battle of the bands is saturday, im hopefully going, my friend/guitar teacher zandor is playin, hes bad ass at the guitar. hes 17 and can out play most skilled 25 year olds. and hes teaching me the ways of the guitar!! oh yeah. well, aside from sleeping and playng the guitar, not much happened, other than my friend showing up to school today stoned off her ass. which was quite funny. well, i best be gone, post more later. peace out.
-Matt

mafo86 @ 2004-04-20T13:17:00

2004-04-20T18:21:57Z

yo yo, wadd up yall?? lol, its tuesday, and im not at school!!! my sister is "sick" so i got to stay home and take care of her. she threw up at like 8:00 this morning, and after that shes been fine. but hey, i get to stay home so im not complaining. hhmmmm.... i wonder if melissa went back to school today or not? shes been out for a while with mono, dont know where she got it from but she says shes coming back soon, and that was last week. anyway, if any one has any ideas on any heavy metal bands that are good, please tell me them, i need more songs to download and shit. well, latere. peace out.
-Matt

mafo86 @ 2004-04-19T20:11:00

2004-04-20T01:12:28Z

yo, was up everyone, not much here, just chillin. well, things have been the same old around here in texas. im outta time already so ill post more later. peace out. if ya wanna be on my friend thing, reply to this post. later.
-Matt

mafo86 @ 2003-03-02T12:38:00

2003-03-02T19:41:13Z

its officially over between kori and i. done, through, OVER. i never wanted it ot end but nothing good stays in my life. i hate it and i hate everything. m leaving now. last entry. goodbye. ps. this journal. will be deleted in a few days.

mafo86 @ 2002-12-28T10:06:00

2002-12-28T16:07:49Z

hey. merry belated x-mas. i got a lot of clothes how bout you???? well, thats about it. i luv u kori. later

mafo86 @ 2002-12-19T13:24:00

2002-12-19T20:25:36Z

hey. FINALS ARE OVER, OOOOOOOOOOOOOOVVVVVVVVVVVVVEEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. thank god. well, thats about it. i luv u kori. l8rz.

mafo86 @ 2002-12-17T18:08:00

2002-12-18T01:12:11Z

hey kori, cuz thats the only person that reads my journal. not much happening here. i made a hot topic wish list and ill post it but i honestly dont expect anything from it and kori, dont get me anything else, u already got me more than i deserve k?? well it here atMyWishlist there ya go. later

ps. i luv u kori